You'll hear yourself.

So I know it's not sustainable, but it's pretty phenomenal to go to work at 4:30 AM and leave at 9 PM and feel genuinely happy about it. I had a slew of really invigorating sessions today. Pushing myself to the edge of my comfort zone, feeling confident and open to process and opportunities to help people realize their inner awesome. Family therapy, evaluation results meetings, play therapy, impromptu consultations and catch-ups, emails and sharing stories.

I had a good conversation with a colleague last night about life and work and families and learning and growing and what it means to be a therapist. It's not what I thought it meant ten years ago when I started grad school. It's so much bigger and deeper and messier than that.

I'm still inching towards balance. I'm not working this weekend or next weekend. I'm carving out time for things I want to do while still being present for clients. I'm patting myself on the back for that.

A wise person told me that you'll hear yourself when you do therapy. You'll say things to people not because you need to hear them yourself, but because you genuinely mean them. But then you'll get to hear them too. You'll hear these whispers below the surface of therapy.

You are a feeling person in a messy world. You are not responsible for the happiness and well-being of all those people. There's more right with you than there is wrong. Open your eyes to this love all around you and let it in. You are magic and joy and beauty. You are not defined by your mistakes. You are enough. Just as you are. You are enough, you are enough, you are enough. 

How incredible to walk with people as they forge new paths and revisit dark corners and test out new ways of being. Today, I hear myself.